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princessofgeeks
User: [personal profile] princessofgeeks
Date: 2017-10-21 19:21
Security: Public
Mood:aggravated aggravated
Tags:hairflips
Subject: football announcer challenge

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badgerbag
User: [personal profile] badgerbag
Date: 2017-10-21 16:22
Security: Public
Subject: Mermaid points

Moomin convinced me that the HCA Little Mermaid story is actually amazing because she just feels her feelings but isn't an asshole, doesn't get married, and becomes foam on the sea and an air spirit who helps people so basically her story NEVER ENDS and she is a SUPERHERO who flies around with air powers, doing good in the world! I started out with the complete opposite point of view on this story.

Also when he said he thought of me in relation to her feeling like she is walking on knives..... i actually think of that sometimes so that kind of touched me.

He is also reading Gilgamesh and some Bible stuff for philosophy class and seems to be keeping up in his other math class! So nice to have him here even for a day. <3

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echan
User: [personal profile] echan
Date: 2017-10-20 21:29
Security: Public
Subject: (no subject)

I've been working on physical, non-digital, art. Paper, canvas board, acrylic medium. Cut up comic book panels into mashed together scenes. It is an exercise in humility and frustration. I'm fairly good at the planning parts, but my technique for the assembly sucks. It is easier to accept the limits of physical tools than digital ones, and not assign everything to personal faults. But I still often question if I'm using the right tools, if the paint knives would be more useful if I wasn't using them wrong, if there's something different I should be doing with the acrylic to keep it from drying quickly in the worst ways.

I set myself up for stumbling, even failure, in so many ways. I read tutorials grudgingly at best and resent the way they all skip over so many details about why and what else, the explanations are too narrow to trust. I do try different techniques, but rarely on scrap or waste material. The idea of proper scrap/trash is a concept uncomfortably close to luxury -- to have so much of something that you can waste some deliberately. Winging it is perfect for making something that works, but also guarantees rough edges and parts that make you cringe.

I should get the completed pieces scanned, for documentation, but I haven't managed to find a good way to do that yet. Selling prints is not an impossible plan, but feels even more out of reach than any other part of this -- who would want a mediocre print of a questionable scan of a piece of crappy art?

I make things that disappoint me and are mostly useless, but I do it anyway. I wonder if this qualifies as mindfulness, or some kind of monk-like devotional practice, or just pointless stoicism.

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Ninety Degrees (90d) 🌻
User: [personal profile] ninetydegrees
Date: 2017-10-20 18:38
Security: Public
Tags:games, health, life, ramblings, work
Subject: (no subject)

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Impossible Things
User: [personal profile] sixbeforelunch
Date: 2017-10-19 13:50
Security: Public
Tags:tv: brooklyn nine-nine
Subject: regarding this week's brooklyn nine nine

I'm going to need all of the Jake/Amy fanvids and art now, please and thank you.

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badgerbag
User: [personal profile] badgerbag
Date: 2017-10-19 09:37
Security: Public
Subject: No excuses every day

Cannot quite work up the oomph to fix my various Wordpress problems.
Yesterday was a nice office day, tho my face still hurt I had a good afternoon there.
The smoke blew away from here over night and now it's foggy and rainy. I can't find my face mask.

I'm on 100mg neurontin at night for the face nerve pain from shingles. Taking it at 7pm isn't quite early enough (i am still groggy and weird feeling now) I'd like to go off it by the end of next week or decrease the dosage. My face really hurts..... and is cold sensitive. I need one of those microwaveable pillows.... my old one got moldy I think. the actual heating pad is huge (the size of my entire back) and rough textured. My eye is twitching.... it feels tired. I guess all the muscles around my painful face are tensing up. The skin is not too bad now but the pain has moved to a deep ache in my jaw like a toothache.

Working in little fits & starts on my new writing project (a novel)

Actual work still looming though right now I have a little bit of a break. (mid cycle, no dot release so far for 56, the lull before a big push to release 57)

Nazi rally in Gainesville is pissing me off. Hundreds of cops mobilized for this bullshit. It just helps militarize the situation even more.

Reading - Squirrel Girl novel, which was beautiful! Last night read The Lucky Stiff by Craig Rice and this morning The Fourth Postman. Hardboiled detective. But also funny! Craig Rice is Georgiana Craig.

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princessofgeeks
User: [personal profile] princessofgeeks
Date: 2017-10-18 21:13
Security: Public
Mood:sad sad
Subject: Late to every party

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masquerading as a man with a reason
User: [personal profile] ysobel
Date: 2017-10-18 16:11
Security: Public
Tags:fandom: batb
Subject: More batb

Read more... )

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masquerading as a man with a reason
User: [personal profile] ysobel
Date: 2017-10-17 15:11
Security: Public
Tags:fandom: batb
Subject: More batb liveblogging

spoilers of course )

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masquerading as a man with a reason
User: [personal profile] ysobel
Date: 2017-10-17 00:04
Security: Public
Tags:dreamscapes, emotions are confusing, post-midnight ramblings
Subject: Dream emotions

One of my dreams last night evoked a feeling that I have been trying all day to remember, with very little success.

I don't remember the imagery from the dream -- something about coming home after a war, something about the I-character being a prince -- but it's not the imagery I care about. It's the emotion. I can't remember. It was partly like -- oh, I don't know, like a newly crowned (and mostly still school aged) King Peter coming howm to Narnia after his first battle as king; it had elements of Harry returning to Hogwaets after winning some external tournament for Gryffindor (why Gryff in particular and not Hogwarta as a whole I don't know, and the not that sticks out was people back at the castle waiting, like in a Greek myth, to see which color sails adorn the ship, so someone could run back with news of the winner, which makes no sense in a world with magic, but again the visuals don't matter.

And I can't quite remember the emotion.

I think -- in the way you can sometimes remember the shape of a word without remembering the word itself -- it had the shape of a sort of nostalgia, like coming back as an adult to places you frequented as a kid (and things are so much more small and ordinary when you see them with adult eyes). But also a bit of ... deliberate loss? Of having gone to do the thing knowing you'd be changed by it and knowing that you'd never get innocence back, watching kids be kids and being unable to join in because you know too much. And some element of disconnect, like you've been off fighting a battle in Faerie and return triumphant to find that a hundred years have passed overnight and they're really quite happy that you won but you don't know them because they're the great-grandchildren of your baby brother or whatever, and you can't get the missing years back.

Those are the pieces I can remember, but ... echoes, not the source. It's more than that and *I don't remember*. And the more I try, the less I grasp.

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brainwane
User: [personal profile] brainwane
Date: 2017-10-15 15:51
Security: Public
Subject: Cleveland & Mastodon

I will be in Cleveland, Ohio later this month, in case you want to meet/recommend/invite me to speak/etc.

And in case you are trying that newish social network Mastodon out and wish to follow me, I'm @brainwane@mastodon.social.

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Jewelfox
User: [personal profile] jewelfox
Date: 2017-10-15 12:53
Security: Public
Tags:capitalism, communism, console games, game consoles, handheld game consoles, nintendo, nintendo switch, playstation 4, playstation home, playstation move, playstation tv, ps vita, sony
Subject: Before the Nintendo Switch, there was the Vita

Allow me to take a moment off from talking about game consoles in human form, in order to talk about game consoles in game console form. Specifically, the Nintendo Switch, and how Sony basically handed the market to them.

Discussion of expensive personal electronics and capitalists behaving badly )

By making the "Switch" functionality core to the console itself, Nintendo is neatly sidestepping all the incompatibility BS that Sony built in to their products. It's a fresh start, a requirement for all Switch games going forward, and it's one that I strongly approve of.

Now I just need to cross my fingers, and hope that either the Neptunia series winds up on the Switch like the Atelier series already has, or that Sony gets their act together. Portable game consoles have been my treasured companions and comfort objects ever since I was little, and while I like being able to stream my games on Twitch or a TV I don't like being disconnected from them when I can't get to one.

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Jewelfox
User: [personal profile] jewelfox
Date: 2017-10-14 13:08
Security: Public
Tags:!essay: religion, cuteness, family, homophobia, inari, masturbation, mormonism, personal, queerness, religion, suicide
Subject: On cuteness, queerness, and surviving a Mormon upbringing with your kindness intact

So I was browsing through an online copy of the New Era, the Mormon church's youth magazine, because when I'm anxious and depressive I sometimes regress. This time it actually helped, though, to take a look at this stuff in hindsight.

Mild homophobia and family stuff, and brief mention of suicide )

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let me hear your voice tonight
User: [personal profile] alexseanchai
Date: 2017-10-14 13:15
Security: Public
Subject: help meeeee

My brother's birthday is in three days. He is asking for audiobooks. I am going to venture the guess that podcasts would also be welcome (though I suspect podfic would not). He is offering zero guidance on which ones. I have no idea what books he already owns in any format, except that he owns a very great deal of Catholic nonfiction in hardcopy, and also some Tolkien. I asked him in September to name a few genres he wants to read in or subjects he wants to be educated on so I would have a place to start. (I know Catholic theology on the "I went to Sunday school with the parish until I got confirmed" level. He knows Catholic theology on the "I have a Master's in theology from Franciscan" level.) He has not responded.

What should I get him, or recommend to him? The less money I need to spend, the better. (Though I assume pointing him at Amazon Music's $0.00 dramatic reading of the KJV is cheating.)

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ripe and rosy
User: [personal profile] pinesandmaples
Date: 2017-10-14 03:01
Security: Public
Tags:77˚f/ 25˚c
Subject: Solo

At 32, there are all of these things I know to be true about myself bubbling up that just make so much sense. They are so congruent with the core of how I know myself to be. They align with the vision of my future that I had at 15-16-17, and they are so very right.

But all of these wee truths are socially opposite and counterintuitive to the norms that we hold dear in this world. Things like wanting separate bedrooms when I live with a lover (but being very okay with sharing beds) or living in a house that allows for lots of social contact instead of leaving my house to find it.

I find myself enjoying my own company more and more as long as I can also step into social situations when I need the warm embrace of known company. But I also like walking into a large event by myself. Just me. Only me.

There is a sense of completeness that I am enjoying these days. All of these smaller actions are me, being complete and whole as myself. The smaller completenesses allow me to be in relationships, in friendships, in community.

Everyone says that your 30s is a time of revelation and wholeness, but I didn't believe it. I am so glad to be here, now. (I'm also astoundingly grateful I am not here with children. I cannot imagine how different the world would be if I were doing this journey of discovery as a parent instead of as a single person, building a better me. Hashtag selfish.)

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Jewelfox
User: [personal profile] jewelfox
Date: 2017-10-13 18:37
Security: Public
Tags:!essay: feminism, !essay: games, anime, femininity, feminism, fetish, hyperdevotion noire, hyperdimension neptunia, magical girls, my little pony, playable female characters, transphobia, world of warcraft
Subject: Why we love Hyperdimension Neptunia but MLP and World of Warcraft creep us right the hell out

Hyperdimension Neptunia and its spinoffs have a lot of material that might make people uncomfortable, from skimpy magical girl costumes to scenes where kids get abducted. I personally cringed during Anonydeath's introduction in episode six of the anime, for reasons I discussed in my last entry.

Despite that, the world of Gamindustri has become a haven for me in the last few months. I can go on adventures there with a cast of mostly good-natured female characters, who don't answer to men and aren't trying to seek male approval. They don't have to deal with oppressive societies, either, because they're literal goddesses who each rule a whole country. Sometimes they have to deal with existential threats, but they always manage to overcome them by working together.

Now, that sounds a lot like the premise for My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, which most people would probably agree is more kid- and female-friendly. But I personally had a lot of trouble watching the pilot episode of that series. There was so much boundary violation and forced friendship, where the characters have to get along no matter what.

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tl;dr; I feel like it really shows that "western fantasy" stuff is designed by regressive men who long for the days of bikini armour and Conan, and modern MLP is made for "bronies," while Neptunia's characters were designed by a woman to appeal to herself. Someone please tell me I'm not just being creepy and blind here.

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princessofgeeks
User: [personal profile] princessofgeeks
Date: 2017-10-13 15:46
Security: Public
Mood:tired tired
Subject: TGIF

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Jewelfox
User: [personal profile] jewelfox
Date: 2017-10-12 12:56
Security: Public
Tags:4 goddesses online, anime, console games, fanservice, homophobia, hot cpu-on-cpu action, hyperdevotion noire, hyperdimension neptunia, lesbian, playable female characters, ps vita, sexism, transphobia
Subject: Is it okay for girls to like Hyperdimension Neptunia?

Technology Tell's Jenni Lada tells all:

Finding it passed the Bechdel test was only the start. Hyperdimension Neptunia games offer a pretty positive view of women, once you get past the innuendo and outrageous costumes. It does something that’s practically unthinkable in the world of games, for starters. It features an all-female cast. Neptune and her sister, Nepgear, are always the stars. Their friends and rivals are all women. The only time men show up are as an occasional villain or ancillary character. Male characters often don’t even merit character portraits.

More quote and some of our thoughts, on the games and the anime )

tl;dr I love these stories and characters, I like the all-female cast of incarnate deities, I even like some of the lesbian fanservice, but some of the male fans skeeve me out and I want to find other women / enbies who appreciate these games? Also I've ordered the fake-MMO 4 Goddesses Online and may be playing it online soon.

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let me hear your voice tonight
User: [personal profile] alexseanchai
Date: 2017-10-12 13:10
Security: Public
Subject: (no subject)

Talk to me? Go on about anything that really interests you, or anything you think will interest me?

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brainwane
User: [personal profile] brainwane
Date: 2017-10-12 11:33
Security: Public
Subject: on card and board games

Variations on a theme (the Great Board Games Desensitisation Process post), by [personal profile] kaberett. If you love card/board game socials, or if you are reluctant to play card/board games with others, this is worth reading.

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