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[dw] On new beginnings.
In many ways, Dreamwidth is a new start for a lot of people coming over here. I've been reading ![[staff profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user_staff.png)
denise's reading page, and it's a theme I've encountered over and over; new site, new start. In many ways, that also reflects the ethos of the site itself - that is, going back and doing things the way they should have been done in the first place.
And right now, in my own life, I'm also going back and doing things the way they should have been done in the first place. And now, with this move to a new name, part of that is complete.
So I've decided I'm going to see if I can use Dreamwidth in a new way. Use it to overcome my fears; to try not to rely so heavily on what other people think of me. I do that all the time, and it's not healthy; way too much of my happiness rests on how other people think of me, and I need to realise that I'm my own person. I should not look to other people to validate my existence.
With that said, let me say this publicly: I am a transgendered woman. I was born with a male body, but female everything else. Female brain, female soul.
I'm stating this openly because I don't want to be controlled by the fear of what'd happen if someone were to find out. My friends know about it, but I've been keeping it hidden from the public eye because I don't like not knowing who reads my public stuff. I've been very wary about revealing information about myself online because, well, this is the Internet and public is public. Once you've said something publicly, you can't unsay it, and that information can be presumed to still be around in some form years later, even if you delete the original source.
Well, fuck that shit.
I don't want to pen myself in any longer. This is me, take it or leave it. I will not have myself be controlled by fear any longer.
New site, new start.
I hope you'll join me.
denise's reading page, and it's a theme I've encountered over and over; new site, new start. In many ways, that also reflects the ethos of the site itself - that is, going back and doing things the way they should have been done in the first place.And right now, in my own life, I'm also going back and doing things the way they should have been done in the first place. And now, with this move to a new name, part of that is complete.
So I've decided I'm going to see if I can use Dreamwidth in a new way. Use it to overcome my fears; to try not to rely so heavily on what other people think of me. I do that all the time, and it's not healthy; way too much of my happiness rests on how other people think of me, and I need to realise that I'm my own person. I should not look to other people to validate my existence.
With that said, let me say this publicly: I am a transgendered woman. I was born with a male body, but female everything else. Female brain, female soul.
I'm stating this openly because I don't want to be controlled by the fear of what'd happen if someone were to find out. My friends know about it, but I've been keeping it hidden from the public eye because I don't like not knowing who reads my public stuff. I've been very wary about revealing information about myself online because, well, this is the Internet and public is public. Once you've said something publicly, you can't unsay it, and that information can be presumed to still be around in some form years later, even if you delete the original source.
Well, fuck that shit.
I don't want to pen myself in any longer. This is me, take it or leave it. I will not have myself be controlled by fear any longer.
New site, new start.
I hope you'll join me.